Here we are in month 4 of 2026. And for me I feel like a whole year has been shoved in the timespan of 3 months. I have had days that I was riding high, nothing could stop me and life was rainbows and unicorns. On the flip side, I have had days that have felt like the gates of my personal hell have opened and that’s it. That’s all I can handle, I’m done.
This last month especially has been super difficult for me on every level possible. Physically, mentally, emotionally, financially. I got blasted on every side. For something that is going to benefit my health in the long run, I had some vein procedures done in my legs. My veins were not opening and closing as they should and were causing pain and heaviness, not circulating right. Corrected now by laser treatment, I am still in recovery and by 2 pm daily I’m just tired.
During all of that, timing be damned, I was blindsided and broken up with. I realize my last post on here was a fun date that we went on. Not exactly sure how I feel about that now in hindsight. The weight of emotion on top of the physical weight has been crippling some days. I feel sad and angry, confused, upset that I had no say, that it was just done. I am still processing that while trying to focus on my health and the only thing I really have control over.
I have had some big wins when it comes to my business. I have had new clients. repeat clients, new opportunities for collaborations and even have connected with new contractors that hopefully will be a long term partnership, profitable too. I have created digital content and I have create a physical product to sell. My foundation now is solid.
I am not sure any of this will interest my readers but all of this is to show that I am a real person. A human that has to roll with the punches and despite being in the struggle bus is still trying to move forward. I am adjusting back into just me and focusing on what I want and where I am going. I hope to get back to consistently posting and sharing the new things I will be doing for me.
If you are going through it too, know you aren’t the only one. Know that breaking has to happen to build a better foundation. To give you the opportunity to do more and be stronger. My legs have been poked and burned and day by day I am walking and feeling stronger. It will happen.
The Distracted Damsel 